Thursday, January 17, 2008

I've found my niche!

As a new dad its often easy to feel left out of the important things in kaiya's life. I dont get to nurse her or really be that apart of her feeding. Not for lack of trying she just is not that thrilled with getting food from me. I spend the least amount of time with her of anyone in the house and in general like I said I think its easy for dads to feel like they really play little to no role in their childs life at this stage. I however have found my purpose! Every night I put Kaiya to bed. Its not that big of a deal I know but its special to me. It makes me happy that I might rarely be there to wake her up in the morning but almost every night im there to help make sure she has a good nights sleep. I say her night night prayers with her and then lay her down and just try to make her as comfy as possible. Sure its not always easy and most of the time shes going to sleep when I wish I was going to sleep. But its a way for me to give Lisa a bit of a break and for me to play a role in her daily routines and thats worth more to me than a bit of sleep. Its not always easy and well to be honest my little girl takes after her mom when it comes to being forced to do something she doesnt particularly want to be doing. But I love those moments just the same. I love being your dad Kaiya and I just wanted you to know that something as simple as being put down to sleep was something that I really cherish.

Sleep well little kuma chan, sleep well....